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7/29/2006

What you want

Filed under: diary, rant — persimmon @ 3:52 pm

My mum, she hates cooking. It’s tiring, she says, and it requires creativity she doesn’t want to waste on something that will be gone in an hour and leaves a mess. This explains neatly why I love cooking so, and the only loss from this summer has been time spent on the bus that I would otherwise spend cooking and/or futzing around on the internet. The futzing I don’t miss so much, but the cooking, well, that’s the heart of my house: home is where I cook, and I’m getting tired of Kraft Dinner.

Why am I telling the internets about why my kitchen is a wreck? Because an old friend is fed up with Linda Hirshman—and I can’t blame her; who isn’t? I have to respectfully disagree with her, though. Hirshman is a self-centered asshole who can’t see over her priviledge, someone who doesn’t even bother pretending to publicly care about people outside her economic class, someone who apparently loooooves using her own life as a Platonic model. But none of that makes her arguments against homemaking wrong, and conversely none of it lends weight to it either. As best as I can tell, Hirshman pisses the spit out of my old friend because my friend believes all choices are valid, and (here’s where I think I may be wrong) should be supported and validated.

Which premise may be appropriate for all this working-parent/childcare-providing-parent crap, but is something I abandoned a long time ago, because I was making myself nuts trying to understand how some people could endorse this all-paths-are-valid viewpoint and be such utter little shits, or be so obviously wrong. I concluded that I’m not cut out for bodhisattvahood, and that some things are wrong, some questions are stupid, and that for many situations, some choices are more valid than others. People make choices I disagree with, and to an extent I feel required to support their freedom to do so, but that doesn’t mean I have to pretend to condone their choices or respect the flaws in their logic.

So really, it’s only the “equally valid” part of Lorelei’s objections that’s sticking in my craw, and this is why I’m blathering on about cooking: I love it, and it hurts when I can’t do it the way I want. My mum hates it, and nothing I say to her will change that. We have completely different local maxima, and if we stuck around to listen to all the arguments in favour of or against cooking, we would both be miserable and change the subject.

Dear fellow humans: if you love something or think it’s worthy, for fuck’s sake, don’t sit around waiting for other people to approve of it. And while you’re at it, quit kicking the back of my seat.

7/24/2006

My summer, in Q-and-A format

Filed under: diary — persimmon @ 8:19 am

Q. Where the hell have you been?
A. At ${drugstore}, in ${area of large city}. Or possibly on the bus between there and my house.

Q. Do you hate your job?
A. No, I hate my boss. The job itself is pretty good, and I think this is a much healther situation than coming home from work every day crying. Not that I am mentioning names, ${irritating business-cult-adopting hospital}.

Q. WTF is up with your boss?
A. Hell if I know, but at least the rest of us are united in thinking zie’s off hir rocker.

Q. Are you using those wonky pronouns again?
A. Maybe.

Q. So seriously, how the hell are you?
A. Really, really good. And also fairly bitter about my boss and my commute, but that’s par for the course, bay-bee. Oh yeah, and I sprained my ankle like 6 weeks ago, and it’s still not quite normal, but it’s getting close.

Q. And your BH?
A. Is in love with his job. I’m jealous of their relationship, but at least he still comes home to me.

Q. What about school?
A. It starts in….a while. I’m currently registered for 21 credits, but only until I figure out which of several electives I’m planning to ditch.

7/8/2006

Irates of the Carribean

Filed under: General — persimmon @ 12:10 pm

Is what you’d get if the BH and I were on vacation right now. It’s also what the theatre sign across the street appears to read, from this angle. You can blame the DMV.

I, along with some amorphously large group invoked to comfort me, have failed my first Washington State drive test for licencing. I suck at backing around corners, I suck at parallel parking, and the observer sucked at determining whether I was entering traffic appropriately. “Verbal control to avoid collision,” my ass.

So I’m stuck taking the bus for another three weeks. It would have been two, but apparently the BH and I are going to Canadia that weekend. At least it’s not six extra weeks of winter.

7/4/2006

thirty ways

Filed under: General — persimmon @ 2:27 pm

Part of being a hippie like me is that you end up browsing these odd websites in your effort to find suitable hippie-friendly goods, such as organic eco-dyed hemp bias-cut skirts. Hippies have a substantial overlap with the new-age community, so these websites often carry irritating self-help books with absurd titles, along the lines of “Towards a consciousness of spirituality: the coming revolution of knowledge”. Which also sounds to me like a really wanky thesis someone in the humanities might write, but I’m a) a sciences grad and b) a snarktacular sniper.

So when, today, I saw a book titled Thirty Ways to Silliness, I thought it sounded so refreshing! so honest! so much more useful than all those other stupid self-help books that people fill their heads with and then try to lord their superiority over me when really they would benefit a lot more from a solid grounding in evolutionary theory!

But no, it was Thirty Ways to Stillness. Goddamnit. I know one really good one: go to work, take the bus home, kick your shoes off and lie on the bed. I don’t think I need twenty-nine others.

7/1/2006

Oh, hi

Filed under: diary — persimmon @ 5:13 pm

Based on this summer so far, happiness may be inversely proportional to posting frequency. In the last 4 weeks I’ve

  • finished finals
  • started working full-time
  • moved and
  • sprained my ankle but good

I have not gotten kicked out of school. My GPA is slightly higher. My job doesn’t suck much. Perhaps there is no other shoe, and I can quit waiting.